Pappy… We remember you almost daily I believe… We miss you dearly….

Pappy… We remember you almost daily I believe… We miss you dearly….

Pappy would be 80 years old today – WOW – he did almost make it too… We lost him July, 2011, and we have missed him daily. From the oldest to the youngest of our children  A Navy and Army veteran respectively…. Pap was a real man’s man.

When he left the service, he quickly grew in popularity ni the field of country music. During the day he’d work as a DJ on the local country station in Atlanta (HOtLanta), GA – and picked several nights each week. He rarely took a break.

As the years passed… he’d marry… and invariably give the home and what he owned to head to Nashville for a spell… His passion was to simply connect with a group that allowed him an opportunity to work with a major picker and hang his hat with that person. His landing and favorite was Willie Nelson of all people, and eventually he formed the Whiskey River Band and I’d like to say the rest is history – but the history is incredible and detailed. Look for his bio to his text on the blog soon… He wanted to finish it before he passed, then he asked me to get it in publish form so he could approach publishers to get it on the market. It’s a wonderful, witty, funny, sad, but in the end Pappy adventure – and then some…

After the last wife… Pap headed SW and stopped by to see me and mine…. He hung out a few days… a few weeks… a few months… WOW – next thing I know we’re picking and grinning at local joints and he’s living in the very first house my wife and I bought…

One night, during a show, Glenda May  (the May we tagged on) – a patron of the pup – was there… and Pap fell for her – all the way…

Almost 17 years later she passed, and we believe the only reason Pap did not leave her is because they never married. As she got older, she had health issues that caused Pap to take more and more time to tend to her. I remember spending teh weekend there in the mid 2000’s, and it was very sad to see all that he had to do to take care of her. While she seemed perfectly fine…. She had to be watched almost always by then – and he worked part time as a painter in the large mansions that lined Lake Guntersville, and one day fell 20′ and cracked and broke a couple ribs… Beat himself up pretty bad… Invariably, he too, retired, and while he stayed home with her mostly – we did get to pick a little. I would make it a point to try and shoot down there (Alabama) every year… Until Glender-May passed, and he actually came to stay with us in Michigan. Here he had a small area he called his own, Our Florida room was as wide as the house – and he loved being there. He hated the winters as much as I – but he loved it.

In 2007, we’d gone camping for a week in West Michigan – riding quads and bikes in the dunes and racing trails north of Mt. Pleasant. We fished in the evenings, and enjoyed fish at times… It was really good…

I remember, during our last couple nights… Pap asked if William could enjoy his huge finishing rig, and he just sat back and chilled…. On the drive home, our primary U-Joint on the main shaft of the motor home gave out – and we had to be towed. When Pap got out of the vehicle he actually fell a bit, and while he got up seemingly okay, we were concerned.

That was the 4th of July weekend. I had to return to NYC that Sunday for work, and my wife calls me Monday evening telling me he fell again upstairs – she was worried about him. By Tuesday he was in the hospital on life support. His body just shut down. I raced home live never before. A very long 18 hour drive in 14 hours….

July 7th… that evening…. Pap let go – after being taken off life support, he went 27 hours more, then gave up… I prayed he did not suffer, but there were times I wondered if pain wasn’t really getting to him, or if he was really just out of it.

In his passing… so much wracked my mind, body, spirit and soul. A piece of me, greater than I can convey, went with him, and it was ony a few years later that I too, almost joined him.  That’s for another time…

September 28, 1938 – Happy Birthday my Dearest of Friends… I love you, miss you, and pray the mercy of God, in Christ Jesus, has your soul saved, and you’re in a whole new paradise and place. A good place… A loving place, where no more tears are shed, and hope is realized in the most unbelievable of ways… Until we meet again… Here, there or in the Air as Mother Melba would say… I know you’d appreciate that…

From the Hamilton Family to Pappy – we all love you, miss you, and pray the life you now have is the abundance Christ shared wtih us. It’s not rest in peace… it’s Live in Love… for all eternity…

Amen….

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Friesian Troubleshooter for Over a Decade… The Friesian Studs… and Team

Friesian Troubleshooter for Over a Decade… The Friesian Studs… and Team

For centuries, a classic Stud in the meadows went largely unnoticed because, well, He certainly did not need notoriety…

The Friesian Studs and Teams of their time – much like today – are the best at troubleshooting, that we adopted it as our Key Troubleshooter for Sclera Design and especially Sclera Hosting…

Friesia-Troubleshooter -   - Best-In-Class - It gets No Better...

Friesia-Troubleshooter –
– Best-In-Class – It gets No Better…

And as a team???

The Friesian Team - Troubleshooters - Absolutely a Force to be Reckoned With...

The Friesian Team – Troubleshooters – Absolutely a Force to be Reckoned With…

We blazed through key Microsoft SharePoint Enterprise Solutions, light-weight to heavy-weight K12 to Higher-Edu School Districts (like KCMSD – Kansas City MO School District – dozens of schools, all levels, tens of thousands of Students and hundreds to thousands to faculty) … To private Nursing Schools, Universities, and even Municipalities, Law Enforcement especially…  We did the first 75 public facing MOSS 2007 Enterprise Solutions in Beta 1 and 2 bits, converting to RTM (release to manufacturing) when it went to RTM bits. There was no job too small…

Becoming a Silver Partner in Hosting – Sclera Hosting took the Troubleshooter to newer horizons and the possibilities were endless…

Friesian Troubleshooter - Raw Power - Simple, Powerful Solutions...

Friesian Troubleshooter – Raw Power – Simple, Powerful Solutions…

We were living the life we loved, and loving the life we lived, and enjoying the absolute best that MSFT had to offer. No challenge was too great… We never said no, we cannot do that. From the smallest lock and key service, to a 47 TB Information Base unheard of and classified – but absolutely genius in its simplicity of design and implementation – allowing us the short periods to say we worked for the Executive Office of the President of teh United States – as the solution certainly served that branch/arm.

Once I became disabled… I was merely put out to pasture…. not patched up…

Friesian Troubleshooter - out to pasture and retired....

Friesian Troubleshooter – out to pasture and retired….

I like the out to pasture vs. disabled. No ego, mind you, just keeps the focus on HOPE – in focus – and HOPE never far away… I can heal – I can come back – I have to believe that one day – it’s going to turn around… Turn about being fair play – I’ll have served enough pasture time 🙂

As the Troubleshooter… Remember, there was nothing we could not tackle and nail down as a solution. Nothing at all…

If we could do that as a small team – imagine teh possibilities indeed, and watch what’s coming in the next few months. We’re pretty for General Announcements on our RTM bits and completed levels of the solution – as we launch.

We will give recognition across the field – where it belongs, and cannot thank everyone enough for your help. Read? Set? Here it comes@@@ 🙂

 

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The Life we Live… Love it… Love it More… Always Hope… Hope never quits…

The Life we Live… Love it… Love it More… Always Hope… Hope never quits…

When I have my days… boy, do I have them…

Could not be better - thank you Lord....

Could not be better – thank you Lord….

This is a day after the office – or my office that is… I know longer toe the line in a corporate office – so life is mch better – most would think…

Getting here is thanks to a huge, long, tedious journey….

Our journey through the years... starting at the bottom... walking forward hope...

Our journey through the years… starting at the bottom… walking forward hope…

If you thought you’ve hiked a few trails – well – maybe you have… I remember hiking over 825 miles of the Blue Ridge –> Shenandoah –> the canoeing the New River from Boone NC to Crater Lake State Park, VA. – however, we only made it to Galax/Fries VA because of 7 solid miles of class 7 rapids…. There were 13 of us – 5 canoes, I was in a 2 man ones – we were the last to actually go down too… We held our own really well, trying to collect critical Army duffel bags along the way – allowing canned goods and other superfluous things to sink/float down. We made it 5 of the 7 miles. Eventually we gathered everything at the huge flood wall in Fries…

Those were the days of hiking it…. Then there is the largest of all hikes we all must take – the hike in life – pushing on to our Hopes, Dreams, Goals, what we believe is our calling in life…

At my age – I would think I’d know my calling in life. Well, in part, I know what I want it to include…. I want God the Father as my Father…. I did not have much of a dad growing up, and no mom at all after the age of 7…. Such was my life – such grew my Hope. As I got older, I learned that the truth behind real salvation was quite simple when looked at for what it is….  We recognize that God sent Jesus Christ as His only begotten Son, to live and due on the Cross – the worst, most horrible of deaths – for our lives. And that on the 3rd day, Christ rose from the dead and revealed Himself to many. He shared that, if we but confess our sins, and repent of those, and confess Him as our Lord and Savior, in Christs’ Name, Amen – then we are saved – for eternity. Nothing extraordinary there – but oh, how extraordinary it is 🙂

When I see great and small miracles, super, and small prayers answered, in all,  then I know it is our Lord and Savior, reaching out to help us without anything flashy. He’s already worked all of the flashy signs nd miracles some 2018 years ago. Now He indwells us via his Spirit, and we would not have to worry about seeing miracles, we believe, by faith.

As I grew even older, this grew stronger. I’m a sinner, Under the Law, I’m condemned to hell eternally. Under Christs’ Crace, In His Name, I’m saved, for life eternallll That’s been my HOPE.

The Bible says that God knows what we need before we ask for it – but I still pray for our needs, desires, wants…. Mostly – that we see His path for our lives, His will for our lives, and have the discernment to follow it. I do indeed, in Christs’ Name…. Amen…

Thank you for visiting Evening Cup…. Live the life you love… Love the life you live…

I love those that love me… I pray for all of those I remember to, and then some…. Most of all, I pray you realize your HOPS – in Jesus – and that the Love and Peace that surpasses all understanding – blesses you beyond measure, beyond your imagination… Remember one more critical thing… thee aer angels encamped about you – to keep you safe and serve you like you cannot imagine. They’re there in the gazillions 🙂 Believe that!!!

Now, the next steps… on that continued hike… Keep looking up and forwward, pray daily, and in fath, claim and stand on your prayers. God be  with you… And always with you…

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Get Wordfence for your site – and get way ahead of the curve… Security-wise…

Get Wordfence for your site – and get way ahead of the curve… Security-wise…

I waned ot take a few moments and share what the CEO, Mark Maunder of Wordfence and a cut-above the norm when it comes to trying to help you secure your WordPress Site.

Today – they launched a huge dump on me regarding my gaps and holes in security – and I just use the basic – free version – I’m going to upgrade to the premium version simply because of what it affords you:

  • Advanced scan and clean capabilities vs. basic scan and lightweight cleaning
  • Professionals available at the click of the mouse to help you review your scan logs
  • Professionals available at the click of the mouse to provide site deep scan and inspection for Trojans and viruses….
  • Professionals available at the click of the mouse to advise and guide you on the configuration of Wordfence for your site – so you’re op

And so much more… I’m giving credit where credit is due – reach out to Mark at www.wordfence.com – and tell him I sent you…

If you’re serious about Wordfence sites, then you must be serious about Wordfence… It is teh only tool i your bag of tricks that does all that it does – from a single platform…

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If you aren’t already a member, you can subscribe to our WordPress Security and Product Updates mailing list here. You’re welcome to republish this email in part or in full, provided that you mention that the source is www.wordfence.com. If you would like to get Wordfence for your WordPress website, simply go to your “Plugin” menu, click “add new” and search for “Wordfence”.

Thank you for visiting Evening Cup… Have a great evening… And ping if you have any questionson WordPress or Wordfence in general…

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Encouragement and so much more… Family Haven… Led by your dreams…

Encouragement and so much more… Family Haven… Led by your dreams…

In my walk down memory lane this evening (morning???) – I’m mindful of a couple other quotes that really bring home family, and the ties that bind us.

Like the following….

                    The family is a haven in a heartless world…

Family is a haven in a heartless world...

Family is a haven in a heartless world…

We have a large family – not extended – but just us and our children – and so much to be thankful for. I remind them as often as I think of it – you’ll always have a home to return to.. Despite some bumps in the road… Family is our Haven….

Also, provided by Anonymous…

Don’t be pushed by your problems, but led by your dreams…

Don't be pushed by your problems, but led by your dreams...

Don’t be pushed by your problems, but led by your dreams…

I’ve worked hard to encourage our children to be all they can be – despite the curve balls life throws our way – we can dream, and dream big, and be led by those dreams, not pushed down because of problems that surface.

A family of 10 children, and the 11th grandchild just around the corner, we have a small clan of our own – and they all know what it is to dream big, and follow those dreams. I know a few of teh children have had some hard times, and such as life is – they just want to be loved and appreciated, so take time out and let your family know just how precious they aer to you. Encourage them, pray for them, and thank the Lord for them. You are truly blessed when you have so many that it is all you can do just to keep them well fed, ensure they need or want for nothing – and in as much as we can – we often can give them some of the things they’d like to have.

Christmas when I was growing up was quite different than we celebrate today. We tech our children to give when it is in their heart to do so. You do not need Christmas or any specific holiday to give… Giving comes from the heart. We celebrate the death and resurrection of Christ vs. all the commercialism that has taken Christmas in another direction – we believe…

Hug your children if you can – or send hugs across the wire when you talk. We believe that prayers are powerful in helping the children too… So considere that if you’re an active prayer warrior… We can never have enough of those…

In Christs’ Name we pray all things in His Name… Amen…

Thank you for stopping by Evening Cup… Don’t be a stranger…

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An excerpt from Emily Dickinson – Hope is the thing with feathers…

Reminiscing this evening, I’m mindful of the hardships so many people experience, and struggle through. Taking an excerpt from Emily Dickinson – Hope is the thing with Features…

  •      Hope is the thing with feathers
  •      That perches in the soul,
  •      And sings the tune without the words,
  •      And never stops at all,

Are you living the life you love? Are you loving the life you live?

I pray that you are, if not. May the peace that surpasses all understanding, be your friend, keeper, and BFF…

God’s mercy allows us salvation through Christ, if we but repent, and confess that He is our Lord and Savior. The rest is free and not as hard as you may think. It is a daily ritual I revisit each day.

May you be so blessed, that every day brings you peace and food for the spirit. Hope is the thing with features that never stops at all…

In Christs’ Name, I pray… amen…

Thank you for stopping by Evening Cup… Stay in touch…

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Just when you think you have it hard – it can be much harder….

Just when you think you have it hard – it can be much harder….

Just when I think it’s about as much as I can take – and please believe me when I tell you – I can take quite a bit. I could take just about anything incomprehensible – when you view what I’ve lived through the past 4 + years, well, prior to that was no cake walk, either…

Night before last I ran head on into racism like I’ve not seen in a very, very long time. I was blown away… Then yesterday – later in the afternoon – more – blatant brutal anger, bitterness (not to do with me) – unleashed on me in such a way that it actually hurt my feelings – if such is possible…. It most certainly is… The greatest of the pain? From a child. Their insolence and condensation was just incomprehensible. I am still blown away by it. It hurts a great deal to have a child talk to you – the parent – with such disrespect and believe what they’re saying is justified and valid? No child – under NO circumstances – has NY RIGHT to disrespect their parents. God would not have commanded it so – were it not of the utmost importance that a child know and understand that. My children DO know and DO understand it. Nonetheless, I was the tail end of the cat-o-9-tails – tattered and torn – and just shredded – no iota of remorse nor concern for my concerns, feelings, or statement in the matter. I never opened my mouth.

Suffice to say – I do not even want to be here any longer – I simply do not want to be. My relationship was already deteriorating at the husband level – it’s total shot now. And quickly moving to select children as well… That’s when I know it’s time to go.. Just go…. So said… but necessary…..

I will miss Mr. Buster and AJ the greatest – as so much joy has flood my soul from these 2 fine children. I cannot fathom being away from them. But the time has come….

In just the past 72 hours – I do not want to even remain on this earth…. That’s how I was left feeling… I hadn’t been torn down, kicked down, kicked while already down, and spit on, lied about, brutally talked to as if I was a butt ugly piece of crap – just too much to describe.

Just when you think you have it hard – it can be much harder than you can imagine – despite any number of excuses or apologies later…. nothing assuages the pain and suffering of such brutal attitude and nasty attitude toward you – when you’ve done absolutely nothing wrong.

For this Evening Cup… I had to take a few moments and let those suffering know – you’re not alone – at all. I’m with you man… I’m with you 250% and then some….

If you feel you have something in your life awry – and you feel you should pray for it? Then do just that. Find a quiet spot. Close your eyes, and mumble your heart’s desire to God. He already knows what you have to say. He’s not just the God of 2nd chances – he forgives endlessly – no boundaries – no limits – just hand it to Him – Repent of what you may be doing negative / wrong – confess of that – pray all in Christs’ Jesus’ name – amen. Find a soothing  picture to review…

More of New Mexico - Beautiful Settings....

More of New Mexico – Beautiful Settings….

Actually – I believe NM was the previous night – this is off the Mohave Desert someplace – not sure where.

I’m watching Hurricane Florence at Cat #2 – pound the Carolina coast lines…. Doesn’t even put a dent in how I feel…

I’m not feeling sorry for myself. There is a profound difference. I am hurt – beyond expression – I am hurt – no come back – no resilience here – just plain hurt… And DAMN it hurts…

Down home – as a child – when we were worn slap out – we were dog tired… So tired that dog isn’t budging if it’s life depends on it. That’s how I’m winding down…. Just dog tired…

As I’ve shared with my children – you’re on a job to work – not make friends; make friends carefully, slowly, taking great time to test the relationship. It’s critical that the friendships they build are life-long ones – the only ones worth their time. People can be a lot of baggage just by virtue of who they are!!!! So much the more – when it’s garbage in that there baggage. Sorry – those in the know – know what I mean.

Good night folks… Thanks for this evening cup…

We need so much prayer – for bills, health, health and bills… And so our circle goes. For me? No fears… I do believe it’s finally about time I move on. I’m too much of a burden on this family – and in the end – their lives will improve – I believe. I know the youngest will have a time with it – but they’ll hear from me and in time they’ll understand… I pray….

In Jesus’ name…

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Disabled V – Higher Quality of Life – and Much, Much More… Hoveround Electric Chair

Disabled V – Higher Quality of Life – and Much, Much More… Hoveround Electric Chair

Here, I’m reaching out personally, asking the techie’s I’ve known a couple decades, as well as just really great people I’ve met via Facebook and LinkedIn.COM – if they donate and help make this possible for me.

The following is a snapshot of the one I’m trying to get:

Howvereround MPV5 Cart

Hoveround MPV5 Cart

You may remember seeing these years ago – Haev Medicare? Let your Medicare or Medicaid pay for yours, and get one today!!! I have news for you – that dog never did hunt…. I almost died in August 2014 – and learned then – those commercials were laregly fables… No kidding… You can only get one on a  charge card – which is really way too much to charge – or you can pay cash – which I was blessed to be able to do. However, I could not afford a Hoveround – I had to settle for an Elite Drive model – low end – about $1,400 and it has served me well enough for 4 years, especially considering the territory and land I’ve had to live on. It has not been easy….

That said – this past month – I found a Hoveround MPV5 used model – 1 owner – nicely used… The woman passed away from what I understand and the daughter is raising funeral costs / expenses – so – we have the opportunity – I do – to get this greatly reduced. The above picture is basically the unit – lower-end – but quite durable and with plenty of heart / sould where machines are concerned. I’m not a little humbled. It was a few grand easily in the condition it was in – she started way below that and even reduced it further. Rather than Couwdrise.COm or GoFundMe.COM – I took advantage of a family foundation not-for-profit site – LifExtraordinary – (LiveExtra.ORG) -who’s story is heart-breaking until you reach the point of recovery – PRAISE THE LORD – anyway _ setup shop on their site – posted my story and a picture of the unit – and raised $200 tonight already. That’s not necessarily representative of my connections and what I can expect – I have to reply on God to provide. For all I know – I’ll have the remainder of what I’ll need tomorrow – a few days to transfer the funds to my bank – and I can go pick it up. Yes, I’m beside myself with anticipation. These units are perfect for indoor use – turning on a pivot of a quarter basically – I can get to / from any room in the home – and even bathe wtihout major issues – which has been crippling until now…

A link to the actual story and fundraiser is here  – I believe you’ll find – it’s an excellent deal – considering the MPV5 runs upwards of $3,500 to $5,500 and sometimes more dependingon your options and whatnot. Again, this was one owner, and she took it easy on it. So it should be expected to be in excellent

My original story is included at that site along with the picture….

Could I be more blessed? Only by opening my will to the will of God and knowing His will for me when I miss it – kind of like missing the forest for the trees??? I have that as a plague of my spirit and soul if no one else does

New Mexico Window Setting - To die for in the beauty of it....

New Mexico Winter Setting – To die for in the beauty of it….Metaphorically, of course…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

That setting – exotic to my soul – and so much more. I cannot get enough of God’s beauty from this earth… He’s given us the simplest of exotic peeks and pokes here and there – you just need to be blessed enough to find them.

As I work on another buisness venture / endeavor – I am mindful of the location of the manufacturing and production studios – ‘potentially’ – potentially – Flagler, Colorado… A location that can contribute the location of these specifics – buildings, factories, even housing for family / employees, and the sky is the limit – depending on how it unfolds. This all remains to be seen.

A few things – quite key – to share.

 

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When love leaves… Where do I go??? Who cares??? Why???

When love leaves… Where do I go??? Who cares??? Why???

This is a statement / group of questions I have encountered so many times in my life – as I have lived the very questions as well…

Martha and Mary – one had a brother, Lazarus – and Lazarus got sick and died. A normal and given event in real life. No one lives on and on. We all must pass some day. In that event, many are impact – and in my case, I’ve had people so close to me pass that I thought I’d never get over it. Conversely, I’ve had relationships break up that I thought were for a lifetime – and the pain is invariably the same. I’ve lost a piece of my soul, heart, spirit – and in the end – felt like I just didn’t want to live anymore. Yes, I’ve actually had that same experience – so I know the feelings…

The truth is – I haven’t gotten over many of life’s events like this – even after so many years. Time makes it easier to deal with as I am distracted by other events in life – but when I visit those initial feelings, I am overwhelmed with the same profound pain and grief that consumed me so many years ago.

When love leaves, where do I go???

Eternity and beyond...

Eternity and beyond…

I’ve spent days a couple times, in agony… No amount of crying or groaning would relieve one iota of pain – nothing– touched that amount of pain. And no one cared like I did – I’m alone, so much grief, so much agony – no amount of anything could take away the overwhelming agony of being alone and in such pain that at some points, I just wanted to die. I did not want to live any longer, because I honestly believed there was nothing to live for.

Martha and Mary experienced this too, but had a conviction in their lives, being much older than me, and raised differently – they were Old Testament Jews (by upbringing)  – they believed in the Law and the tellings/teachings of the Prophets of old. They knew life did not end with death. Quite the difference – life began in the death of this life – life eternal begins – and that is a perspective I had not been taught well or understood.

They lived in the days of Jesus; they believed that He was indeed, the coming of the Son of God, the Messiah, the Christ, and that there was nothing he could not do.

In short, Jesus came to visit them, and knowing Who He was, Mary used the most expensive perfume (I’m juxtaposing it was like that), and bathed his feet in it, using her hair to clean his feet. She knew she was at the feet of the Son of God.

She conveyed to Him, Lord, if you were but here, my brother could have lived, as you can do all things (she was well aware of many miracles already performed by Christ).

He shared with her, do you believe your brother will rise again and live? She acknowledge, yes! They went to the tomb where Lazarus had been buried 4 days already, and Jesus commanded them to move the stone away from the tomb. They were reserved because he’d been dead 4 days, and the stench alone would be great. Jesus conveyed that he but slept, and was there for this purpose – to show that the Son of God also had the power to give life, as well as take life. As in the end of His, it is He who took His life, not the Romans or Jews, but Christ Himself took His life, and He can also give it.

They moved the stone out of the way, and Christ called out, “… Lazarus, come forth…” (John 11:43) – and this He did mostly so that the unbelievers would have no excuses for their disbelief – they saw with their own eyes what happen. But ultimately – to give them back their brother and loved one – alleviating the greatest pain known.

Martha and Mary had to be the most excited and happiest people on the planet, a dearly beloved had passed away, and was now with them again.

But we do not live in that era – nor do we comprehend something actually happening. There are those that not only believe, but that commune with the dead, and try to share that communication with their loved ones – all to bring them peace (I know my own uncle pondered doing this – but only pondered it, he knew what God’s command was regarding this). However, God has made it clear, we’re not to try and do this – but in faith, trust in Him. He knows our pain and agony greater than we ourselves, if your mind can comprehend that – it’s quite true. No one knows us better than ourselves, except for God. He knows the very hairs on our head – how much more the pains of the heart / spirit / soul. When we grieve, He grieves even greater because He wants to take away our pain and bless us in peace with a conviction like Martha and Mary had, and much more.

When love leaves… Where do I go??? Who even cares??? Why???

When Love leaves... Where do I go??? Why??? Who cares???

When Love leaves… Where do I go??? Why??? Who cares???

When love leaves, it’s not always in death… More often than not – it’s in relationships, but all said – it is a gut wrenching, unspeakable pain – that nothing can address or help. I have known people that did take their own lives because they could not live with the pain. In my few years, I have seen and experienced so much life and death that I can say, when love leaves, where do I go??? Why??? Who Cares???

I go find a very private space and let my mind, heart, soul, spirit – purge me of grief – in tears or any number of ways – I let the grief run its course and purge myself of the initial pain of the loss.

Why do I do this? My mind will drive me insane if I do not. We’re not designed to hold in so much pain and not purge our bodies, minds, hart, soul, spirits – of the indescribable hurt/pain.

Something I have kept secret for decades is the epitome of feeling a loss and suffering… I was only 7 and my grandmother bought me a parakeet for my birthday. I loved birds, and I loved that one to death – figuratively.

I came home from school one day and it was gone. My mother said it flew out the cage and out the house while she was trying to clean the cage. The cage wasn’t clean, but the bird was gone. It hurt quite a bit. Bless her heart, my grandmother bought me another one that very week. I felt almost whole again. The void was filled some and I felt better, but always on edge. You see, I wasn’t raised close to my siblings or family. By age 8 I was taken from a broken home and didn’t see everyone again for a very long time. Anyway… I woke up one morning and the bird was laying on the floor of the cage, dead.

I can only share – that was the only thing in my life that brought me a sense of being. It filled my heart with love and brought me great joy. I just couldn’t believe it was just dead like that. I fought a cacophony of feelings, chaos, and turmoil in my heart like cannot be explained. I only know that anything I cared about – at all – was ripped away from me like I wasn’t allowed to know or feel loved. And in truth – for decades – I did not.

I came to call this a life experience. The character of the person I became is based on the pain, suffering, loneliness – literally – all of my hardships in life – chiseled away the character of the person I am now.

When love goes away, where do I go? Who cares? Why?. Over the course of the next decade I found God in many new ways – but most profound – I believed. Jesus did not just come to save me from my sins and eternal damnation in hell – He came to share a love with me that is indescribable – but most profound in the hardest of times. This I learned and believed. No preachers, no persons, no one in particular taught me this – the Word of God in the Bible taught me this. I read, and re-read that Book several years – yearning to know more. As I studied and grew older, I learned. Some lessons were hard – some not – but I learned that when Love Leaves? I follow it back to God because He cares, and His love for us is the single, greatest emotion I took away from all of my learning. I studied many religions… Why the Jews were picked above all is a moot point to me when it comes to the simple things God has tried to teach us. I know that His selection of the Jews is significant and important; I also know that by grace we are saved, through Christ Jesus and the sacrifice he paid for us. We’re saved, we’re loved, and we are because nothing brings Jesus or God more joy than a soul close to their heart that trusts and believes them like our youngest children trust and believe in us.

While incomprehensible to so many still – God cares too – greater than even you. He cares so much, and should he be a man that would shed tears like us, the heavens would flood the world for all of His grieving.

I shared this Evening Cup because of a recent loss and great pain that followed. So many decades of such pain and loss. How do you help one another??? You share that you care – and you can only do that by giving a deep part of yourself. In this Cup – I have given more than I thought I could.

Hallelujah – God is great… Believe, receive, and stand in the knowledge that your love is in you – waiting to be shared. Give, and it shall be given back to you, press down, in great measure – without reserve – beyond your expectations.

May the Lord bless you in the unspeakable peace, and keep you always – in His way…

Live the life you love… Love the life you live… And man, live!!!

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Boy and the RattleSnake Story – Beware of What you DO Know – RIch and Poor – We have had our Signs

Boy and the RattleSnake Story – Beware of What you DO Know – RIch and Poor – We have had our Signs

A little boy was walking down a path and he came across a rattlesnake. The rattlesnake was getting old. He asked, “Please little boy, can you take me to the top of the mountain? I hope to see the sunset one last time before I die.” The little boy answered “No Mr. Rattlesnake. If I pick you up, you’ll bite me and I’ll die.” The rattlesnake said, “No, I promise. I won’t bite you. Just please take me up to the mountain.” The little boy thought about it and finally picked up that rattlesnake and took it close to his chest and carried it up to the top of the mountain.

The Boy and the Snake - Beware of what you do know!!!

The Boy and the Snake – Beware of what you do know!!!

They sat there and watched the sunset together. It was so beautiful. Then after sunset the rattlesnake turned to the little boy and asked, “Can I go home now? I am tired, and I am old.” The little boy picked up the rattlesnake and again took it to his chest and held it tightly and safely. He came all the way down the mountain holding the snake carefully and took it to his home to give him some food and a place to sleep. The next day the rattlesnake turned to the boy and asked, “Please little boy, will you take me back to my home now? It is time for me to leave this world, and I would like to be at my home now.” The little boy felt he had been safe all this time and the snake had kept his word, so he would take it home as asked.

He carefully picked up the snake, took it close to his chest, and carried him back to the woods, to his home to die. Just before he laid the rattlesnake down, the rattlesnake turned and bit him in the chest. The little boy cried out and threw the snake upon the ground. “Mr. Snake, why did you do that? Now I will surely die!” The rattlesnake looked up at him and grinned, “You knew what I was when you picked me up.”

Bitten by friend or foe… It happens…

When you’re growing up – you’ll have your encounters with the snake. Eve certainly did – as did Adam. Religion aside – the single, most deadly sname to man in the Eastern United states? The Eastern Diamondback Rattlesnake, then the Cotton Mouth / Water Moccasin (I was bitton by a baby one – lethal….) – finally – the Coral Snake – fortunately – natural to the Sandhills regions and cannot really bite you…

The final gist here, however, is that you KNEW not to mess with a snake so dangerous and you allowed yourself to be beguiled into believing things can be different – when you KNEW they could not – but you WANTED to believe – so you took that risk – and you paid for it.

As you children grow up – take to heart your lessons learned – even if you’ve never been bitten. You do not need to be bitten to believe.

At the same time – God does not have to reach down and have a snake bite you for you to believe He exists. He does not have to make a lame person get up and walk in front of you for you to believe. These are called signs, and the New Testiment warned that many would come – supposedly showing signs, while others stated unless I see – I just don’t believe. Shame on you.

In the New Testament – There is the rich man and the beggar Lazarus  (Let this be a lesson – there will be no signs, and one has come from the dead – and none would listen or believe):

he Rich Man and Lazarus (Luke 19-31):

19“There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. 20At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores 21and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.

22“The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried. 23In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. 24So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’

25“But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. 26And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’

27“He answered, ‘Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my family, 28for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’

29“Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’

30“ ‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’

31“He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’ ”

We have oru signs… We have our Savior. We have grace unspeakable, and blessings beyoung measure – from a Father in heaven that knows all that we need before we even ask – but in Faith – we must ask, believing… Knock, expecting the door to be open, Go seeking – and you will find – the richness of God in all His Glory – in your heart – for ever and always…

Live the life you love, and love the life you live. Let nothing rob you of the peace and knowledge that Christ has risen – he is Lord, and he it is that has proven beyound measure – God’s huge Grace for Mankind – we’re nothing wtihout Him – in Him we can do all things – andc nothing can stand against us – Snake – or not – Praise the Lord.

Thank you for this Evening Cup… God bless you aways….

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